Chloe’s haiku
Posted in the attunement sneeze on 01/28/2009 04:03 pm by margot lasherI just posted 5 more haikus by Chloe to see if they give us any insight into the way she relates differently to the various beings in her life.
I just posted 5 more haikus by Chloe to see if they give us any insight into the way she relates differently to the various beings in her life.
The bearded human fears to see me grow.
He thinks I’ll dump his canoe.
6.
I cock my head and strain to grasp their meaning.
Alas! they don’t speak dog.
7.
The trainer with the squirt bottle is to be feared.
She understands me.
8.
The little human with striped socks is a push-over.
She gives biscuits.
9.
The human keeps telling me to sit.
Let her sit! I have things to do.
Yes, we need to hear from Chloe. If Chloe only responds to “Bob’s” sneezing, we need to ask her what distinguishes Bob’s sneezing from Bev’s (or anyone elses). Now here is another thought: Bob is the male leader of the pack. Is it possible that his sneezing is more significant in some way to Chloe because he is the male leader? I know that Shiro treats Soren, the male pack leader, differently from the rest of us. And Bryce, before he died, responded differently to Soren also.
Meg, thank you for your kind and insightful words about the book. As you saw, I have great difficulty with death. I know that some people have reached an inner state of acceptance, but as much as I have studied and practiced spiritual traditions, I have not reached that acceptance. In the woods with Shiro I feel the oneness of everything and the sense that death is a return to that unity. But in the house, in the human world, I go into an inner state of fear when a close companion, dog or human, dies.
Anyway, I’m glad that my struggle with this, and Paul’s comment, helped with Henry’s death. Paul made that comment years ago and I never forgot it. Maybe (I am thinking out loud now) I should try writing more about the death of one’s dog. I know that many very good people have already done this, but another work from a slightly different perspective can’t hurt.
Here is Bev’s original comment that I am moving so that we can read it again:
This is an odd attunement instance. Our current dog, Chloe, a black lab/maybe border collie mix, (rescue puppy) is very intelligent and connected to both of us. She studies us when we talk to her, cocking her head as though struggling to comprehend our spoken language and file away the messages. Her oddest piece of “caretaking” ( and I know I’m anthropomorphizing here) occurs when my husband sneezes. Wherever in the house she is, she will rush to him, and attempt to climb in his lap and lick his face. Last night she was with me in the study, drowsing. My husband was in the next room, his back to us, but visible. Suddenly Chloe became alert, and started toward the living room. Then my husband sneezed – a whopper. She was instantly in his lap, licking his face. I think she must have been getting silent pre-sneeze vibes from his breathing, and was proactive in expressing her concern post-sneeze.
Joanna is of course right in her relational interpretation of the attunement sneeze. I think what confused me was that I don’t experience sneezes as disturbing, so I didn’t think of Chloe as tuning into the human’s upsetedness when he sneezed. (Let’s call the human Bob to make this easier to talk about). So Joanna is saying that Chloe’s response to Bob’s sneezing is like Sasha’s response to Joanna’s upsetedness on the phone, and I agree. If Chloe had had a traumatic experience as a puppy, and associated sneezing with danger, she would try to comfort or protect everyone who sneezes, and from Bev’s comment it seems that Chloe only goes to comfort or protect Bob, not anyone else. So, Bob must get upset when he sneezes, or have some feeling, some change in his inner world, that Chloe tunes into and interprets as his needing to be comforted or protected.
Is this making sense? Do we need more facts, such as how Bob feels when he sneezes?
You watch me at my computer
Black eyes full of wisdom
And I so hope you don’t know
What is happening to you
We have our special time at night
Where we lay head to head
Whispering secrets
Known only by
You and I
We walk on the beach in the rain
Everyone else is getting wet, leaving
But there is still fun to be had
Even in the rain
We know this
You and I
Eleven years
We live quietly
Our love known and felt every moment
Even when you are playing hard to get
We both know we need each other
You and I
There are things to do
I have to go to work
You want to go for car rides to the park
But we are happiest at home being quiet with each other
Silently agreeing that home really means
You and I
You don’t always snuggle, you don’t always give kisses
You wear your dignity like a comfortable robe
You are the “serious one”
But we know, at night, during our time
That we can be vulnerable
We can be silly
You and I
Your quirks, your little jokes
You do things that make me laugh
You pretend to be fresh
But we know it’s for fun
It makes us one
You and I
Heaven is the top of your head
The way it smells, so clean, like a baby
And the way it fuzzes up when I rub it
Your breathing slows and grows content when I stroke it
It’s when we are happiest
You and I
I see you now
Watching me, loving me, trusting me to protect you
And my heart aches
Knowing what is to come
It’s the only thing I can’t share with you
You can never know
Any of this heartbreak
And I must keep it away from you
I fear that you know it anyway
That you see my heart
Sense my sadness
As you always have
There have never been secrets
Between you and I
How will I bear it when you are gone.
My princess, my heart, my soul
When there is no you
Only I
by Chloe Houghton as intuited / transcribed by Beverly Houghton
1.
I feel my strong white grown-up teeth.
I snap twigs in two.
I’m called “mouthy”.
2.
That first night the human held me in her lap.
By now I am too big.
3.
I pulled the branch, but the hillside came too.
I didn’t know they were attached.
4.
My coat’s too wavy for my breed.
They all want to know my lineage.